My cat died last night, and it was really quite devastating. She was old – just about 16-years-old to be exact, and she lived with us for 15 years. We have been feeling that this day was hidden somewhere in the shadows just waiting to sneak up us, but never did I think that the end would happen so suddenly with no warning. One minute she was eating her breakfast with vigor and the next she was fighting for breath. I suppose we’ll never really know what happened, but truthfully, what does it matter anyway? We’re not getting her back, and we can all find comfort in knowing that she spent her last moments feeling the love pouring out of us.
I haven’t felt inspired to write lately, and even though I am extraordinary busy with work and school, writing during my free moments just hasn’t felt natural. I hadn’t planned on writing about our cat dying either even though I have paid tribute to each of our pets as they crossed over the Rainbow Bridge over the years.
So what changed my mind you might all be wondering? Simple. It was the power of kindness.
When Nutmeg died last night, I posted a picture of her on Facebook and sent a RIP message out to the world. I am absolutely moved and kind of dumbfounded, too, by the result. Friends from all parts of my life left their beautiful remarks, but what really amazed me was the amount of strangers that wrote to me, too. One woman emoted, “I don’t even know you and I’m crying. I dread this day. Condolences.”
She summed up the sentiment. Our pets touch us in ways that people just can’t. They speak to our gentlest sides and somehow know what we are feeling and offer comfort in their loving gaze. Their stare speaks volumes – perhaps a deeper language than even the spoken word.
So with all that kindness comes inspiration. I feel so connected to my fellow pet lovers, because they get it, and that is a beautiful thing.
My song of the day is by the Pretenders. “I’ll Stand By You” is the ultimate show of support, and I am feeling it all around. Thank you friends. xo
I find it incredible that my kids come home from school each week with their “Friday Folders,” and I get homework. I swear..there have been nights where I have more work to do than they do. There are papers and forms and journals and readings, and the amount of materials has equaled to 30+ minutes of my time. Obviously, they are my kids, and I will do anything for them. Seriously though, between my two children I think the paper pushing is just a bit obnoxious. It only adds to my feelings that I am always working and working and working.
My song of the day is from The Pretenders. I love Chrissie Hynde and her band singing about being “Back on the Chain Gang,” because that’s how all of that paper pushing makes me feel. Click HERE to hear this rockin’ lady from my hometown of Akron, OH, belt out this awesome song. You’ll all be proud to know that I got my Mommy “homework” done yesterday even before dinner time. That makes me rockin’, too!
I don’t know how it is for most people in the world, but for me, I really genuinely care and love the people I work with. I work at a lot of different places, too, but it doesn’t matter which school I am teaching at, I have developed good camaraderies at each place of employment. I may not hang out with my coworkers outside of work, but it doesn’t matter. I care about them as I would in any dysfunctional but loving family.
Yesterday was a tough day for me. I learned that two of my school families have had unfortunate chinks in their armor. At one school, there has been a loss of a family member. Though I doubt most of us knew this family member well, the idea that our coworker is going through such horrific pain is unbearable. It was hard being there without feeling ill at ease, but yet, it was the only place I wanted to be. With the look of grief in everyone’s eyes, I had a responsibility to uplift with my singing and to maintain a happy spirit for the children who looked up to me expecting all of my upbeat energy.
At another school, I learned that two of my favorite coworkers have had a falling out. I would have never known this to be the case, as they put on a good front around each other, but I learned a little of this story when one of the them confided in me for a brief moment after class. I am crushed by this. These are two amazing adult women, both of whom I respect and care for. The idea that they are not getting along truly leaves a wound in my soul. It’s like our happy family is splitting up.
As I felt so crummy all day yesterday, I realized it is because of how much I care about the people I work with. They are not just coworkers….they are family members. When one of them is hurting, so am I. So, if you are a coworker reading my blog today, I want you all to know just how much I mean this. We may come from different backgrounds, think differently, have different religious and political beliefs, but it doesn’t matter. I love you all. That is why my song of the day is The Pretenders’ “I’ll Stand By You,” because it is true. When you are a family member, I’ve got your back. So, click HERE to hear your song, and know how much I mean it. xo